Saturday, February 06, 2010 @ 3:03 am
confused... lost..
i duno what to do with myself..
im not me anymore..
hate to feel all the negative emotions.
this is not me...
i dont want to drop out like that..
detest the negative thoughts that's running through my head..
where's the happy me?
lost....
you say it takes time to heal..
all the emotions from the past is back to haunt me..
it scares me to see me like that..
exploding... erupting..
i just want to be me again...
this wasnt the way i picture this to be...
why cant i control it.. keep it in..
and not show how i feel on the inside to the world..
show the whole world what i feel inside...
and be judged....
i dont want us to be like this...
really dont want.. back to the top?