Sunday, October 28, 2007 @ 12:35 pm
when will it be like that again? when will it be Well again.. when will it be like the good old days?? WHEN???
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Saturday, October 27, 2007 @ 11:35 pm
please don't think that I'm the problem, though it seems to be on the surface... superficial words of kindness and care, but what are the intentions behind them... as i said it's just a show, performance... now the curtains are down, no audience...just me and u i get ignored and cast aside... if i took down all the excuses u gave me i could be rich writing a book... people don't see this side of u... I DO... that why it may seem like I'm just throwing accusations and tantrums and that im just throwing back the "care" and "concern" right back in ur face; But im not... im just reacting to the things 'done' to me... the things "done" that people dont see.., because u know me inside out.. u know the buttons to push for a reaction.. and the worst thing is that u do it in such a subtle maner, so people cant see it it is evident to me that u're putting on a show.. people who think they know u just cant believe what i say... well it's alright if u got the whole world on ur side.. i guess u had fun without me... not to worry, i wont be here for long... just remember when things go wrong who helped u. well words cant describe how i feel right now... it just cant... i fucking hate to feel like this...
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@ 2:31 pm
disgusted with the way u act... making such a din... disgusted.. you must be happy with ur new found friend... laugh and talking loudly but when she's gone.. u're so solemn and quiet.. sitting there pretending to do your work... Fucking fake, it's just so fucking fake...
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Friday, October 26, 2007 @ 11:13 pm
its happening again, why do i feel let down time and time again.. i feel so crushed.. changes are expected but where are the changes u made? i don't see it... how is it going to work if I'm the one making the changes.. Well... the truth... it's NOT going to work... keep it real.. show what u're really feeling.. putting on a show ain't going to help, acting like there isn't a problem, when there clearly is one.. making everyone think that I'm the problem.. i wish that it could be different.. u portrayed me in the wrong light... making it look like i was the mean one.. the one causing problems, the one adding to ur stress.. i hate being put down by ur friends.. i hate being ignored, neglected, unappreciated.... i detest being treated like a kid....like i know nothing.. Although people say u're an outcast only if u chose to me... but... i dint chose to live my life this way... i dint want to be an outcast.. who would want to be an outcast..but it feels like that now... sometimes i sincerely wish that we could switch places and have u go through what I'm feeling now... just so u could understand... my pains, and pent up emotions... i want to be there for u.... for everything... But do YOU............ for me??
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Sunday, October 21, 2007 @ 8:22 pm
There is still pain inside.. Im trying to make things alright.. but somehow it's hard to get it across why??? I just sit in the corner, watching u laugh ur head out... having fun.... but without me... not even an attempt make me feel better... felt so alone, even in that crowed place.. u seeem to not want to leave the place... basking in the attention given by your friends... even when im far out the door, waiting for u... u still lingered at the door.. it just's hurt to be treated like that... it really feels like there's a double standard... You know that u treat me differently... all i want is to be treated like the rest..
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Friday, October 19, 2007 @ 11:39 am
Ive just came to realise that things arent what they seem it's never going to be the same... it just so heart wrenching... always by your side when u were in need, now that you have established yourself and no longer need me... it feels like abandonment or worst, a spare tire... to think of the importance that i placed on you, and being walked all over, just because i give in... shockingly being treated like im worth nothing in your eyes.. because it is so hard to reach a compromise... the unwillingness to even compromise... for our sake.. Promises that were made, is never going to be kept... i take all the accusations to be true.. unless proven wrong.. help me help u prove me wrong...
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Wednesday, October 17, 2007 @ 6:39 pm
you can call me a page of contradictions, but i think im entitled to my opinion, And i can express is as i deem fit...i dont have to answer to anybody.. Don't try to act as though u know everything... have u ever walked in my shoes, we all have problems and issues and we deal with it in different ways.. so i deal with this problem in a way i can cope with it.. now i dont know what to do to cope... As a friend instead of making it better, or providing a solution u tear me down... it hurts... I'm tired of looking at how things have unfolded for all of us. it just saddens me... u may say that it's the result of my actions, but it takes 2 hands to clap so please, stop putting me down... it cuts so deep, heart wrenching...when it's coming from people who i have considered my friends....real good friends... im numbed, i dont feel the pain from not eating today... although it hurts, but i dont feel it.. so broken and so stricken with sadness, i cried till there's no more tears left to cry... Labels: thoughts
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@ 10:42 am
Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round
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Friday, October 12, 2007 @ 11:56 am
I never really noticed how alone I have become, Or how I rather be alone then around anyone I can't help but feel so out of place Sometimes i just can't look myelf in the face I wonder how it all changed so fast Or how the people i thought i knew just made me an outcast It's strange how quickly everything was rearranged It's like your whole life is all but a page A page in a book of our many mistakes But we don't look closely and repeat the same mistakes
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Monday, October 08, 2007 @ 8:39 pm
Pictures of mid year Semester break 2007  this was during the Sem break when teresa's parent's came down to visit. We stayed at Richmond Hotel on Rundle Mall... we took many crazy shots.. hahaha and this is considered one of the milder ones.... ahaha
 a more normal shot....casss is pointing out her huge pimple
 my new shorts!! with suspenders.. i duno if i'll ever wear them!!!
Acting like cheer leaders..... we're bored.. what more can i say?? hahaha we're posing!! if u're wondering where teresa is, she's next door with her parents....  Acting like she's scared of me!!!! ahahahaha
  Saluting to tere's uncies and bra!!! ahaha just one of the stupid things we did!!   My yummy MEAT PLATTER.. i finished it all by myself... i cant believe im such a pig!! but it was goood!! it restaurant was on rundle street, with the nice balcony..
MELBOURNE
 Melbourne, it was a real cold day... i even used my "harry potter" scarf!
 We had japanese food quiet abit... and this was one of them on ithink bridge road, if im not wrong..
 i love my jacket!!!
this was at my uncle's place in melbourne  Teresa doing a Wong Fei Hong pose... i havent got a clue what the hell she's doing!!?!!
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@ 8:29 pm
Its been a long time since i blogged!I stayed up all night last night to do my assignment,now im so tired.. well i hope i did alright for it... so many things have happened since i last blogged.. people changeit seems like ive been here for forever... i cant wait to go back home in november.. i'll be arriving in the evening on the 24th of november!!!happy 21st birthday twin..wish i could celebrate it with uhahaha... i dont know if u'll even see this post! ahhaahhaanyway... im tired.. and im writing rubbish on my blog!sigh... ----------------------its a crazy world--------------------------------
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Sunday, October 28, 2007 @ 12:35 pm
when will it be like that again? when will it be Well again.. when will it be like the good old days?? WHEN???
back to the top?
Saturday, October 27, 2007 @ 11:35 pm
please don't think that I'm the problem, though it seems to be on the surface... superficial words of kindness and care, but what are the intentions behind them... as i said it's just a show, performance... now the curtains are down, no audience...just me and u i get ignored and cast aside... if i took down all the excuses u gave me i could be rich writing a book... people don't see this side of u... I DO... that why it may seem like I'm just throwing accusations and tantrums and that im just throwing back the "care" and "concern" right back in ur face; But im not... im just reacting to the things 'done' to me... the things "done" that people dont see.., because u know me inside out.. u know the buttons to push for a reaction.. and the worst thing is that u do it in such a subtle maner, so people cant see it it is evident to me that u're putting on a show.. people who think they know u just cant believe what i say... well it's alright if u got the whole world on ur side.. i guess u had fun without me... not to worry, i wont be here for long... just remember when things go wrong who helped u. well words cant describe how i feel right now... it just cant... i fucking hate to feel like this...
back to the top?
@ 2:31 pm
disgusted with the way u act... making such a din... disgusted.. you must be happy with ur new found friend... laugh and talking loudly but when she's gone.. u're so solemn and quiet.. sitting there pretending to do your work... Fucking fake, it's just so fucking fake...
back to the top?
Friday, October 26, 2007 @ 11:13 pm
its happening again, why do i feel let down time and time again.. i feel so crushed.. changes are expected but where are the changes u made? i don't see it... how is it going to work if I'm the one making the changes.. Well... the truth... it's NOT going to work... keep it real.. show what u're really feeling.. putting on a show ain't going to help, acting like there isn't a problem, when there clearly is one.. making everyone think that I'm the problem.. i wish that it could be different.. u portrayed me in the wrong light... making it look like i was the mean one.. the one causing problems, the one adding to ur stress.. i hate being put down by ur friends.. i hate being ignored, neglected, unappreciated.... i detest being treated like a kid....like i know nothing.. Although people say u're an outcast only if u chose to me... but... i dint chose to live my life this way... i dint want to be an outcast.. who would want to be an outcast..but it feels like that now... sometimes i sincerely wish that we could switch places and have u go through what I'm feeling now... just so u could understand... my pains, and pent up emotions... i want to be there for u.... for everything... But do YOU............ for me??
back to the top?
Sunday, October 21, 2007 @ 8:22 pm
There is still pain inside.. Im trying to make things alright.. but somehow it's hard to get it across why??? I just sit in the corner, watching u laugh ur head out... having fun.... but without me... not even an attempt make me feel better... felt so alone, even in that crowed place.. u seeem to not want to leave the place... basking in the attention given by your friends... even when im far out the door, waiting for u... u still lingered at the door.. it just's hurt to be treated like that... it really feels like there's a double standard... You know that u treat me differently... all i want is to be treated like the rest..
back to the top?
Friday, October 19, 2007 @ 11:39 am
Ive just came to realise that things arent what they seem it's never going to be the same... it just so heart wrenching... always by your side when u were in need, now that you have established yourself and no longer need me... it feels like abandonment or worst, a spare tire... to think of the importance that i placed on you, and being walked all over, just because i give in... shockingly being treated like im worth nothing in your eyes.. because it is so hard to reach a compromise... the unwillingness to even compromise... for our sake.. Promises that were made, is never going to be kept... i take all the accusations to be true.. unless proven wrong.. help me help u prove me wrong...
back to the top?
Wednesday, October 17, 2007 @ 6:39 pm
you can call me a page of contradictions, but i think im entitled to my opinion, And i can express is as i deem fit...i dont have to answer to anybody.. Don't try to act as though u know everything... have u ever walked in my shoes, we all have problems and issues and we deal with it in different ways.. so i deal with this problem in a way i can cope with it.. now i dont know what to do to cope... As a friend instead of making it better, or providing a solution u tear me down... it hurts... I'm tired of looking at how things have unfolded for all of us. it just saddens me... u may say that it's the result of my actions, but it takes 2 hands to clap so please, stop putting me down... it cuts so deep, heart wrenching...when it's coming from people who i have considered my friends....real good friends... im numbed, i dont feel the pain from not eating today... although it hurts, but i dont feel it.. so broken and so stricken with sadness, i cried till there's no more tears left to cry... Labels: thoughts
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@ 10:42 am
Sometimes it's wrong to walk away, though you think it's over
Knowing there's so much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams are upside down
And you just wanna change the way the world goes round
Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody
Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry
Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me
Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go
Can't help but think that this is wrong, we should be together
Now I've finally realised it was forever that I've found
I'd give it all to change the way the world goes round
back to the top?
Friday, October 12, 2007 @ 11:56 am
I never really noticed how alone I have become, Or how I rather be alone then around anyone I can't help but feel so out of place Sometimes i just can't look myelf in the face I wonder how it all changed so fast Or how the people i thought i knew just made me an outcast It's strange how quickly everything was rearranged It's like your whole life is all but a page A page in a book of our many mistakes But we don't look closely and repeat the same mistakes
back to the top?
Monday, October 08, 2007 @ 8:39 pm
Pictures of mid year Semester break 2007 this was during the Sem break when teresa's parent's came down to visit. We stayed at Richmond Hotel on Rundle Mall... we took many crazy shots.. hahaha and this is considered one of the milder ones.... ahaha
a more normal shot....casss is pointing out her huge pimple
my new shorts!! with suspenders.. i duno if i'll ever wear them!!!
Acting like cheer leaders..... we're bored.. what more can i say?? hahaha we're posing!! if u're wondering where teresa is, she's next door with her parents.... Acting like she's scared of me!!!! ahahahaha
Saluting to tere's uncies and bra!!! ahaha just one of the stupid things we did!! My yummy MEAT PLATTER.. i finished it all by myself... i cant believe im such a pig!! but it was goood!! it restaurant was on rundle street, with the nice balcony..
MELBOURNE
Melbourne, it was a real cold day... i even used my "harry potter" scarf! We had japanese food quiet abit... and this was one of them on ithink bridge road, if im not wrong..
i love my jacket!!! this was at my uncle's place in melbourne Teresa doing a Wong Fei Hong pose... i havent got a clue what the hell she's doing!!?!!
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@ 8:29 pm
Its been a long time since i blogged!I stayed up all night last night to do my assignment,now im so tired.. well i hope i did alright for it... so many things have happened since i last blogged.. people changeit seems like ive been here for forever... i cant wait to go back home in november.. i'll be arriving in the evening on the 24th of november!!!happy 21st birthday twin..wish i could celebrate it with uhahaha... i dont know if u'll even see this post! ahhaahhaanyway... im tired.. and im writing rubbish on my blog!sigh... ----------------------its a crazy world--------------------------------
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